First Light

by Paul Bell

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about

So, when I last made an album in 2013 - "Small Town Boy" - I wasn’t sure if I’d make another. At the time I guess I felt like I’d said all I had to say. But a lot can change in five years.

These songs kind of snuck up on me. Songs about hope, songs about grief, about questions, about finding beauty in brokenness, about being together. At the start of the year I realised I’d been writing an album.

So in March 2018, along with Dan and Matt Weeks I hopped on a plane to Stockholm to make a record. We locked ourselves away for a week with a few guitars, a piano, some drums and some mics and hit record.

These are probably the most personal songs I've written, and are marker posts on the journey of the last few years, through sadness, and into a place of hope.

This is First Light.

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released August 23, 2018

Paul Bell - Vocals, Acoustic Guitar, Piano, Hammond Organ, Backing Vocals
Matt Weeks - Bass, Wurlitzer, Hi-strung guitars, Mandolin, Synths
Dan Weeks - Percussion, Drums, Programming, Backing Vocals, Synths
Viktor Buck - Electric guitars, Lap steel, Baritone electric guitar.
Johannes Lindsmyr - Drums

Produced & Engineered by Dan and Matt Weeks for weeksweeksweeks.com
Recorded at Fred's Kitchen, Stockholm & Rubble Mansions.

Mixed by Dan Weeks.
Mastered by Svante Forsback, ChartMakers.

All songs written by Paul Bell (C) 2018

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Paul Bell Nottinghamshire, UK

"I like that, I like that very much - Clare Balding, BBC Radio 2.

Paul is a singer/songwriter based near Nottingham. Featured on BBC Introducing, toured the UK with Cafe Nero.

Gigs in Coffee Shops, Churches, Pubs, Festivals.

Four independently released solo albums.
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Track Name: Beautiful and brave
I feel the grief and the gratitude
For two weeks in a hospital room
It wasn’t enough
But you never know the difference it made

I feel the love and I feel the loss
Though it really isn’t mine to feel
My heart is changed
And you never know the difference it made

Be beautiful and brave
Every act of kindness sees the world change
In that moment I know you’ll be touched by grace
Be beautiful and brave (whoa)
Be beautiful and brave (whoa)

There is an ache hidden in the smile
Tears have flowed for a little while
Love lingers on
And nobody leaves the world unchanged

There is a light shining in the dark
And I keep it burning in my heart
Show me the way
Cos I will not leave the world the same

(And I hear you saying)
Track Name: Down the middle
If there is a great divide
I could find myself on either side
When good and bad collide
There’s a battle raging on inside.

Even on my better days
I could still mess up ten different ways
I’m not easy to define
I guess that I’m on both sides of the line

It runs right down the middle of my heart
Right down the middle of my heart
I don't know where it ends
But this is where I start
It runs right down the middle of my heart

I was broken from the start
Everyone's a fractured work of art
In the light and in the dark
Smudged and dirty fingerprints of God

Hour to hour and day to day
I say things I wish I didn't say
All's not lost but all's not fine
I guess that I’m on both sides of the line

It runs right down the middle of my heart
Right down the middle of my heart
I don't know where it ends
But this is where I start
It runs right down the middle of my heart

Take my right take my wrong
Take these broken, simple little songs
Wipe the dirt from my face
Wash me in the river of your grace

Let it run right down the middle of my heart
Right down the middle of my heart
I don't know where it ends
But this is where I start
Running right down the middle of my heart
Track Name: Even when you're gone
We don't get to know the differences we make
It's just the rules of the game
Some things are kept hidden for all our sakes
Some things we should share before it gets too late

Even when you're gone
Your love lives on
Even when you're gone
Your love lives on.

Some things in this life we don’t get to choose
We can only play the hand we’re dealt
So let your kindness be your legacy
You never know just where and when it will be felt

Even when you're gone
Your love lives on
Even when you're gone
Your love lives on.

Like ripples on a lake
Or the planting of a seed
When you love somebody
You can’t know where it leads
I still see the light from a star that long burned out
And there's a love that echoes beyond time

Even when you're gone
Your love lives on
Even when you're gone
Your love lives on.
Track Name: Look back, smiling
I’m glad you’re here tonight
I’ll be sorry when you go
Hope I’ll see you later
Somewhere down the road

For this moment our lives intertwine
I am part of your story, and you are part of mine

I am grateful for the time we share
For these moments breathing the same air
When I remember this
I’m gonna look back, smiling

Like a summer’s day
Can be gone before you know
You savour every second
When the sun starts getting low

For this moment our lives intertwine
I am part of your story, and you are part of mine

I am grateful for the time we share
For these moments breathing the same air
When I remember this
I’m gonna look back, smiling

Through the highs and the lows
Every season of the soul
It means so much to know
That we’ve been together


For this moment our lives intertwine
I am part of your story, and you are part of mine

I am grateful for the time we share
For these moments breathing the same air
When I remember this
I’m gonna look back, smiling
Track Name: Not goodbye
Not sure what this is
How to describe this moment
Don't know what to call it
But it's not goodbye

Reminds me of "so long"
A bit like "see you later"
But whatever it may be
It’s not goodbye

No it's not goodbye
It's not goodbye
I'll see you someday on the other side

Disguised as an end
It's a new beginning
Like losing, but still winning
And it's not goodbye

Weeping in the night
Joy comes in the morning
So whatever this may be
It’s not goodbye
Track Name: Mend the cracks with gold
Some things you can't undo
Some things you can't unbreak
No amount of glue
Can fix the mess we make

Some things you can't unsay
Some things you can't unhear
You can't un-throw a punch
You can't un-cry a tear

But you can mend the cracks with gold
Mend the cracks with gold
When everything seems lost
You can mend the cracks with gold
Mend the cracks with gold
It could be better than it ever was
Better than it ever was

Time is a one way street
And clocks won’t be turned back
You shouldn’t shy away
From the pain that’s in the past

With fragments all around
It’s easy to despair
But the broken and the worn
Are not beyond repair

You can mend the cracks with gold
Mend the cracks with gold
When everything seems lost
You can mend the cracks with gold
Mend the cracks with gold
It could be better than it ever was
Better than it ever was
Track Name: So bright
Have you got questions?
Have you got doubts?
Have you still got things you're trying to figure out

Have you got worries?
Have you got fears?
Have you got bundles of regrets from down the years

Then come, Oh come…

There is a field so bright
And we don't have to run
We can take our time
Hear a still, small voice, whispering
"Love, it's gonna be fine"

Have you got courage?
Have you got hopes?
Are they hanging by the last thread of the rope?

Have you got promise?
Have you got time?
Do you need to know there's someone on your side?

Then come, Oh come…
Track Name: Things no-one knows
Where do all the teaspoons go?
And the other odd socks?
Do they dance with the Tupperware lids?

Which one’s Ant and which one’s Dec?
Is MySpace still ‘a thing’?
Who thought Ja Ja Binks was a good idea?

There are things no one knows
There are things no one knows
One flower withers and the next one grows
There are things no one knows

Why does toast fall butter-side down?
Why is belly button fluff blue?
What’s the second verse of “God save the Queen”

Why are pears always too hard,
or disappointingly soft
But hardly ever in-between?

There are things no one knows
There are things no one knows
One flower withers and the next one grows
There are things no one knows

Where’s the sense in sickness?
Can you reason with death?
Can you make sense of joy and pain?

Could it have been different?
Could you have done more?
Some things refuse be explained

There are things that no one knows
There are things that no one knows
I carry questions but He shares the load
This side of heaven that’s the way it goes
There are things no one knows
Track Name: Safely home
You laughed as you ran
From slide to swing, with a song to sing
The ups and the downs
Of squeaking seesaws made you feel ten feet tall

But the bumps and the grazes
They sting like crazy
Tears are quick to fall

Do not worry
Your daddy's arms are strong
And he holds you
Safe in his love
And at the end of the day
When there's no time to play
He will carry you safely home

Out on the town
The days were long and the nights were warm
Laughs echo loud
And the evening air makes you feel ten feet tall

But a Father’s waiting
With a heart that’s aching
If ever you should fall

Do not worry
Your daddy's arms are strong
And he holds you
Safe in his love
And at the end of the day
If you should lose your way
He will carry you safely home

Years fly like weeks
They’ve just begun, and the next day they’re gone
Time is a thief
Steals the days that you thought were your own

So with tired eyes fading
And body failing
When it’s time to go.

Do not worry
Do not worry

Do not worry
Your daddy's arms are strong
And he holds you
Safe in his love
And at the end of the day
When there's no time to play
He will carry you safely home

Do not worry
Your daddy's arms are strong
And he holds you
Safe in his love
And at the end of the day
If you should lose your way
He will carry you safely home
Track Name: What matters in time
When you are hurting
Keep your heart soft
Hold on to wonder
Lean in to love

Know that you’re precious
You are enough
Feel heaven smiling
Know you are loved

Cos nobody knows how many more goes we get round the sun…

I hope you laugh, I hope you cry
I hope you fail and go back for another try
I hope you’ll love, I hope you feel
Don’t settle for anything that isn’t real
And I hope you won’t waste any more time
Chasing the smokescreens that never could satisfy
And I hope that you find out what matters in time

Walk in the sunshine
Breathe deep and long
Fight for what’s right, now
Admit when you’re wrong,

Learn when to let go
And when to hold on
Live life for something
That lasts when you’re gone